#SkinnyLife
Here goes, me writing another long story when i should be studying for my finals but i thought this might be a bit more important.
If you can tell from my pictures i am very skinny, slim, anorexic…whatever you want to call me. i have been like this all my life. i was always the skinny one who could eat whatever he wanted whenever he wanted and not gain any weight. now for some people this is a dream come true, but for me this has been a problem (don’t get me wrong it does have its benefits and i love it when I’m sad and just want to eat shitty food all the time)
First lets start off at the start. When i was younger i was very active, i played hockey, baseball, i did diving, i played volleyball and would go play at parks and stuff, so i naturally thought i just burned so much energy off i stayed skinny. i did eventually quit all those things and before i started volleyball i didn’t do anything. During this time i went into depression, i would not eat because i thought i was fat, i would look in the mirror and see fat legs and fat stomach, when in-turn, i was normal to below normal weight.
This went on for a while but i found out and realized i wasn’t fat and was skinny (and i owe that to my grandma, although it was by saying i was skinny and need to eat, she helped me out)
Then i learnt what metabolism meant and what it did so i told myself i had a huge metabolism and thats why i was skinny (which is true) but the thing is i am a 17 year old male who weighs 130 lbs(pounds)
So far i have told you what i kind of went through as a kid being skinny but now its the present and I’m very self conscious of my body. Still to this day, i sometimes see myself as fat in the mirror who needs to loose weight. But as some of you may know i have had depression and have anxiety so this is something you can add to the list. But being all those things doesn’t help with me being self conscious. I’m slowing learning that not looking in the mirror and always weighing myself is a very good thing and if your struggling with body issues then I highly recommend that strategy.
